you will never
find words for;
you will learn
to name them
after the ones
who gave them
My heart and mind is finally calm.
I miss you babe.
I can’t wait to be in your arms again.
Good night, I love you.
i hate it when u stop being friends w someone or u break up w someone cos uve got all this information about them like at the back of ur mind like their birthday or their favorite game or whatever, and even years later things will come up and you’ll think about that person and its like. oh. and it never really Stops
February is coming to an end but it seems like it’s been taking the longest time to pass. I don’t know if it’s because of the hours I wake up and do so much more now during the days from school, work, hanging out with my coworkers every now and then. I keep in my mind I am back in school and I can’t be getting lazy and fall back on assignments.
I’ve been staying at my aunts by myself for the past month since it’s right by work and only an hour away from school, and it’s alright. I sometimes do get lonely and emotional when I’m alone. I really appreciate it when he comes by to check up on me and keep me company.
This month, I’ve learned plenty of things. I’ve learned how it can be living alone. I’ve learned how hard it can be managing time and expenses. I’ve learned high school is nothing after you graduate. I’ve learned how attached I am to him. I’ve learned what it means to be a friend and it’s okay to lean on others and be vulnerable.
As of now, being the clumsy girl I am, I sprained my foot on Wednesday so I’m staying home right now. I’m doing my best to get better ASAP to get back to work and school.
Almost through my first week of college and I like it so far. I enjoy the train rides, the different types of people I come across observing their style, the neighborhood, and my teachers. I actually fell asleep today though, having an early class and not getting enough of sleep last night and that’s probably my only problem, sleep.
I wasn’t able to sleep well last night… I need to tire myself somehow to be able to sleep on my usual times.
Here’s where I start taking control of my life again.
I’m just gonna disappear until I don’t know when but it’s really bad how much I’ve been thinking. I think it’s just how the weather’s been but idk.