i love my babe. i wanna just cuddle up with him right now. i’ll get extra extra cutesy with him later because i’m feeling like this. i just adore his face with his new glasses. his warm ass body and how his hands gives me tingles, and i love it when our kisses make me swoon. its kinda chilly right now so i just wanna be wrapped all around his arms and give him pecks on his face, hands, chest and shoulders. cuddle cuddle cuddle babes.
i can’t wait to see him later.
You are so good. So good, you’re always feeling so much. And sometimes it feels like you’re gonna bust wide open from all the feeling, don’t it? People like you are the best in the world, but you sure do suffer for it.
Silas House, This is My Heart for You
Thank god for the colder seasons, I get the urge to get out and take long walks again. I shall, to find my inner peace again but I am happy with how things are in life again. The family is finally back together, I love him dearly and I want to take care of those people first. I hope to see my second fam, BASIC, soon but I hope they’re all swell. I feel like I’m behind in life but I’ll find my way soon. I can’t be so hard on myself because I really get to the point where I want give up and shut everyone out. But his love and care keeps me motivated, and my family is the reason I’m working my ass off to make them proud.
Slowly, my work place right now is not for me anymore. It’s not the same, but I’ll push through as long as I can.
I’m dying to break free.
The year is almost over. I know I’ve grown a lot. I lived by myself almost half the year and it was tough. I learned a lot about myself and have been growing in this relationship with my lovely babe. Family things were hard but we pulled through. I’ve been through a lot mentally, physically and emotionally. I am thankful that I’ve kept myself together especially to my babe for all the comfort, security, and happiness he’s given me.
So goodbye September, thank you for a lovely end.
It’s been hurting me more than usual when we have part. When you drop me off or I gotta go, I feel all burdened all of a sudden. Your presence really does make a difference in my day. Just you being in the same room gives the whole room a different aura for me. I guess I finally understand what you mean when you told me, you’re always alright and okay as long as I’m in your presence and there.
Maybe I need you a little bit more than you need me.
Be gentle with yourself. You’re doing the best you can.
happy one year. i love you so much.
I’ll tell you right now, everyone is going to go down that road of questioning their lives multiple times, multiple nights. I’m back to square one now and it’s a struggle. Being at work almost everyday, pretty much everyday, same old thing is getting to me. I just want to break free. It’s not easy getting older and everyone does need to preserve that childhood part inside of you to keep you whole especially how quickly these generations are changing.
But you can only change how things are for yourself. There will be days where you will just want to lay down and stay home watching movies and tv shoes, play videos games and what not. You also gotta get out there and breathe and take yourself out sometimes. Nothing is wrong with taking strolls outside by yourself, take your pictures, go get yourself dressed and look all nice by yourself.
I’m not gonna lie, I’ve lost my solitude for the past year. Relationships with people can get you lost, now I just gotta put myself first this time. Get myself together and start thinking of how I will be, what I want and need. I’ve been so attached, I end up feeling so empty without him around me but do feel refreshed as well with the times away we’re away from each other.
I gotta start making myself happy and gain my independence again
Here we go.
I’m tired, tired, very tired.